In 2016, I want to put my health first. Exercising and eating healthy, sure, but more than that, I want to feel good about ME. My perspective of myself needs to be healthier. I've always been a pretty positive person, but over the last few years, I've been feeling defeated and have had a really negative attitude toward myself. That needs to change. I want to be a better human (to myself) for me, and I want to be a better parent for Magoo. I know all people screw up and I'm fighting an uphill battle in many, many, many aspects of my life, but there are still things that I do that I can change to improve both the situation, and how I paint myself inwardly.
I also want to come up with a plan to move forward in my life. You know, more than the "graduate and get a paying job" kind of plan. I need to figure out where is best for Magoo and I to be, and work my tail off toward getting us there. You know, finding a great fit for employment, lining Magoo up with a great future school, purchasing/renting a home, the whole she-bang.
Another thing that I'm hating right now is how I've pretty much ended a lot of long-term relationships in my life, simply by not keeping in touch with friends. I've been so busy that I haven't prioritized staying in touch with people that I really care about, so I'm putting this one all on myself. I went to a wedding in August where I spent the reception with a friend from grade school, who (unintentionally) encouraged me to get back in touch with friends. I admit that I was embarrassed when I was unable to provide answers to his questions when he asked how many of my closest friends were doing that he had known of from childhood/early school years. Re-establishing those relationships will do me wonders in improving my emotional health.
So, in 2016, I'm not setting resolutions, per se, but I want to have a more positive outlook on my own life, and get back in the habit of making choices that make me a happier person. I'll eat things that make me feel better, I'll run, find people to play catch and basketball with, and spend a little bit of money on myself to make myself happy sometimes. I have given a lot up to take the very best care of Magoo that I can, and while I don't HAVE to have nice things, I find myself resenting a lot of people in my life because of how little I have allowed myself to enjoy. That doesn't make me a good parent. It only makes me good at buying expensive and usually completely unnecessary things for Magoo. I can still do that and occasionally gift myself with an experience or item that makes me really happy, that's just for me, and not at all for Magoo. He's a happy little boy, and he'll be an even happier little boy if his mama's a happy mama.
Finally, I'm teaming up with my friend, M, for blogging purposes. Once per week (unless we get started and decide to make some changes to how we've set it up) we will post on a topic that we each provide for the other. We are free to choose what to do with the topic, as far as perspective, direction, and length of post. The idea is that we will become each other's support, accountability, and creative juice, should we need a kickstart. I'm looking forward to joining M in this way!
With that, have a happy, healthy, and loving 2016!!!
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